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This posting makes me feel shame

I'm sitting here at work doing document searches. It takes forever cuz I have to search for names to cross reference appointments. It's stupid. There should be an automatic function fo rthis biznazz, but there isn't!

and so while I wait between searches (it takes about 2 minutes per search for about 50 names! whee!) I shall write some drivel! Yay!

So in order to invite more of my "neighbors" into my brain, I shall do a most annoying survey. I don't do them often because they ARE annoying, but the ones I will do shall be fun for me and if you choose to read it then it should be fun for you too!

If you dont' read it, that's fine. I will always  understand the aversion. Especially if you have a Myspace (which I do if anyone wants to add me let me know! ha ha) and people post multiple repeated surveys on the bulletin board ALL DAY LONG. I used to do that.

But I'm over it.

i really am.

*blink*

ok!

YOU & ONLY YOU
1.For the heck of it, Whats your name? Monique

2.Birthday? April 17th

3.Do you like the month you were born in? Yep!

4.If you could have been born in any other month, which one would you choose? September!

This particular survey is missing question 5. This bothers me.

6.If so, can people tell that you are related to them, or do you look totally different? Well I have no idea what you're talking about Survey cuz you deleted a question!

7.How about your parents. Do you look like them? Eh,I don't think I do. I'm probably an alien.

HEAD TO CHIN
1.What is your natural hair color? It's a medium brown color. I get natural blondish highlights in the summer... but I've dyed my hair for about 3 years now and I have no idea what it's supposed to look like anymore! One day I shall post the evolution of my hair, it's been so many colors from black to golden! eep!

2.How do you style it? I have, what I shall call, "ethnic" hair. This means it is a giant afro when it gets wet. So I must dry it, and then straighten it. Thank god for the Maxi Glide (yes, i'm pimping them right now cuz that thing rocks!)

3.What is your eye color? Dark Brown

4.Do you have freckles? A few

5.Do you have dimples? Eh... not really. I sorta have "fake" ones that are above the corners of my mouth when I smile a certain way. But not cute ones like my BF, his dimples are so adorable... even if they are defects! ha ha

6.How about beauty marks? I have a few, the one i recall the most is on one on my arm... does that count? hahaha. "damn, you have pretty arms!"

7.Do you smile showing teeth, or with your mouth closed? mouth closed!

8.Are your teeth straight? Yeah pretty much.

9.Are they discolored? hahah well they aren't brown and green if that's what you're saying!

10.Are your lips big, thin, or in between? I have nice perfect lips!

11.Do you have big ears? Nah, my ears are cute and little!

12.Any facial piercings? No, and no plans to get any cuz i'm scurred

13.Do you have a double chin? not at the moment! hahaha

14.What do you think about your nose? I sorta like it, but I sometimes with it were smaller.

15.Do you look more like your mom or dad? Probably my mom, but not really. more like my dads sister.

16.Do you have any facial hair that you bleach or pluck, besides your eyebrows? hahaha no!!!

17.Do you like your eyebrows? Eh, they are ok

18.Do you like your eyelashes? no, i wish they were longer and thicker. yay Mascara!

19.Have you found any gray hairs yet? *shame* yes... it's horrible! horrible i say!

20.Are you happy with the way your face looks? Nah, I could be cuter, but I guess i'm not gonna go get any plastic surgery on my face any time soon. so i guess i'm happy. blah!

FROM THE NECK, DOWN
1.How would you describe your body type? Uhhh, mother of two with baby fat

2.Are you naturally tan or pale?I'm a pale tan. hahaha

3.Do you have freckles all over? nope

4.Do you think your boobs are big or small? they are smallish, but not SUPER small (losing weight is making them shrink and this bothers me!).

5.Do you shave anything other than your armpits & legs (assuming you shave those)? Yes I do you pervy survey oracle!

6.Are your arms muscular? No, but they are pretty strong cuz of all the grocery's i lift!

7.Are your shoulders broad or narrow? huh?

8.Are your hips wide or straight down? Eh, my curves are normal

9.Is your butt ghetto or small? hahah GHETTO! hahahah. i have an ample rear, but it's not big enough to set a cup on!

10.Innie or outtie? Innie.

11.Any tattoos? No, but I'd like to get one someday.

12.When you are sitting, how many rolls does your stomach have, if any? Well damn, I never counted!

13.Do you have good posture? Only when I'm thinking about it...

14.Any stretch marks? Yes, I've had two kids, can't be avoided.

15.Any major scars? I wouldn't call them major

16.What size shoe do you wear? You're being stupid.. 7 1/2.

17.Is one foot bigger than the other? No...

18.Speaking of feet, is the toe next to your big toe longer or shorter? longer...

19.Did you know that they say if your middle toe is longer, that means your good in bed? no i didn't know that!

20.Do you have pointy elbows? yeah, i hurt people with them too!

21.Do you have chicken legs?

Nope, my legs are healthy and cute

22.Do you exercise? I do Dance Dance Revolution mostly, but I've been known to be a pilates and aerobics participant.

23.If not, do you think you are overweight or unhealthy? I am overweight. I'm losing it though!

24.What size ring do you wear? I think it's a 7 but it might be a 5.. my fingers grow and shrink

25.Are your fingers long? nope

26.Do you think your fingers resemble your toes in any way? ew no!

27.Are your arms hairy? sorta, but it's blonde hair so you can't see it much!

28.Are you pierced anywhere besides your face? no

29.If not, do you want to be? I used to, but not anymore

30.Are you happy with your body? Not yet!

 

MIND & SOUL
1.Do you have any mental disorders? Depends on who you ask!

2.If so, Name them here: I might have split personalities or some sort of manic craziness... and perhaps a borderline personality disorder. but this is self diagnosis that has no merit in reality...

3.Do you have nightmares often? I wouldn't say i do

4.Do you have dreams every night? probably

5.Are you gay? heh... nope

6.If so, have you always known you are gay or did you just figure it out one day? I suppose i've always known i'm straight.. so why not know the opposite?

7.What are your biggest pet peeves? Lies for no reason, bad driving, messy sloppy eating, inconsiderate to others around you... oh i could list crap for days.

8.What's one thing someone can do to cheer you up? Hug me

9.How are you laying right before you fall asleep at night(stomach, back, side ect)? stomach facing the wall or on my side

10.What are your rituals before going to bed? I don't know... turn out the light, put the sleep timer on the tv, check on my kids...

11.Do you have OCD in any way? yes... shhh!

12.Have you ever witnessed anything paranormal? Yep... I believe!

13.Do you think haunted houses are haunted by ghosts or demons? yes, in a sense

14.Do you believe there is a God? sure, he's my boy, yo!

15.If not, what do you believe & why? no not!

16.What is your biggest fear? my children being harmed.

17.What is your most irrational fear? telephone calls... weird huh

18.Are you a fearful person? Not really

19.If so, do you think there is a reason why? I'm not afraid of things that I can't usually conquer.

20.Are you daring? Eh, depends on how i fell

21.Do you do any drugs? If so, Why? Nah, but I have done a drug.

20.Do you drink? Why? yes... I just like it. Sometimes it's relaxing,w hen I'm with people it's fun.

23.Are you a lonely person? sometimes

24.Are you shy or outgoing? once again, depends on how i feel. I tend to be shy but I can be outgoing too.

25.Some say what people think or say about them doesn't bother them, but is that really true? I think it can be partially true, but we all, in some way, care what others perceive us to be. Might I add that this question is REALLY hard to read!

26.What is one thing that will make you cry? Feeling insecure

27.Do you cry a lot? What time of the month is it... ha ha!

28.If not, do you hold back when you want to cry? I try to, but really,i cry on peanut butter commercials sometimes... so there is obviously no hope for me!

29.Are you open with people? Yeah, probably too open!

30.Do you like how you are, or wish you could change a few things? I would probably change a few things if it didn't change the people and the state of my life right now for the worst...

 

wow... ummm... that took too long and is probably boring.

I suddenly feel SHAME!

QotD: Think your job is bad?

What job would you never want to have to do?

 I would never want to be the person that has to check poop for bacteria.

Nope.

Don't want to do that.

 

*blink*

I would also never want to be the President.

 

I'm bored, I shall read my neighbors and come back and post something nonsensical! yay!

QotD: Must-See TV

What television show do you never miss?

I simply have to watch House and Psych most of all. I'm not a big Heroes/Lost/blah blah blah fan cuz I missed a bunch of episodes and I don't know what's gong on, so I just can't be cool. But there are other shows I must watch, and House and Psych come to mind first. I don't know why. I just must see them. Thank God for DVR!!!

So that's it... oh yeah and all my anime shows on Adult Swim. Cuz I'm obviously a giant nerd.

 

EMBRACE IT.

Don't hate.

it's probably boring and crap

I feel like I have been away for a long time. It's weird to me. I don't know what to do with myself when I come back after an extended time. Like.. what do I talk about? I dunno.

 

I could talk about my fight with the evil bitch monster Jealousy this weekend. My boyfriend when on a ski / snowboardting trip with his friends, which included a bunch of girls. On the logical half of me, I was cool with it. I didn't have anything to worry about... he was just having a life.

But my logical side is malnourished and needs to learn how to yell because my crazy insane lunatic side was in full force screaming and railing around causing a fuss in my head. I didn't like him going to be with girls. I hated him calling me and hearing girls giggling in the background. i didn't like him driving up with some girl. I didn't like hearing about the bar they went to with Go-Go dancers that he didn't get to see enough of... grrrrr....

It was just a mess... an unecessary and stupid mess, but a mess just the same.

I am glad it's over.

He was supposed to go again this next weekend with just boys (which could be worse depending on how you look at it) but he might not.

I'm secretly hoping he doesn't.

Because I'm evil.

Ha ha. I need to get over it.

It's not a big deal right?

I know it isn't.

I should go do some work, but that's proving just as hard as making this posting interesting.

I plan on taking some pics of my Sims later and posting those. It should be entertaining or thoroughly weird.

Or both...

pic stuff

 

some pics of me and my kiddies....

I've got stuff to say! But it's stupid...

I'm tired. The last few days at work around this time (2:00 PM) I've been getting fatigued like woah.

It's annoying when you're right in the middle of some task and your eyes just close and you're like "oh hello" when your head slams into the desk...

That hasn't happened YET, but it might. I swear. This is why I have to take breaks every 10 minutes to do something non work related.I don't know why, but it helps me to focus when I am doing work related stuff. I dunno.

I might get up and take a walk around.

I feel like a freakin zombie.

Speaking of, look out for a new edition of Zombie Tigger! I have some pics I forgot to post but they shall be posted soon! muahahahah.

I also need to post some pics from my San Francisco trip.

As well as of my durrty Sims.

What? You don't know abou tthe durrty Sims?

Oh... you will.. you will...

 

*blink*

YOU SEE... this is the fatigue speaking.

OH YEAH! I get to move on February 15th, this makes me most joyous.

only 19 days to go!

I guess I'll start packing this weekend.

Or I won't.

i'll probalby spend most of the time in bed watching stuff on my dvr cuz my boyfriend is going on some fancy schmancy snow boarding trip for his friends birthday and I'm jealous and will be sad. I have insecurities about pretty snow bunnies rubbing on his weiner. Or other random females that will be there that he will like to get attention from cuz he's a whore (an attention whore... but aren't we all? ha ha). And yeah, giggling girls who want to see how his camera works... 

and then I'll have to kill them...

oh well.

spazzy

I have a little over an hour left of work and I feel like putting my head on my desk and sleeping. It's seriously not a very alert day for me. From the moment I woke up I felt like crap and all I could think was "I don't want to go to work today" over and over and over.

Perhaps I should go to bed earlier. It's a thought...

I think I've yawned Ninety times in the last hour. that's a lot of open mouthed sighing noises. I'm sure someone has heard me and knows I'm not really working at all. Just sitting here with glazed over eyes wishing for time to just move a bit faster until I'm home. then it can go slow.

My super cute boyfriend is going to come over today. This makes me happy. We'll eat out with money I don't have and it'll be good times had by all. I also need to put gas in my car. This makes me sad because gas prices are going up. Booo! Hissss!

Wow, this is a dumb post. I should go now.

Watch me.

OH WAIT!

I wanted to talk about my newest addiction: DDR AKA Dance Dance Revolution.

Yes friends. I do love that game.

 

I just bought it for my PS2. Its DDRX. It's hard. Lots of jumping. My legs are sore but I am pretty sure I dropped at least a pound since I got it cuz i've been playing at least 2 hours a day.

It's not hard to play 2 hours a day, especially since I am trying to master all the songs and such.

You can call me lame all day, but it's AWESOME SNACKS.

and good exercise.

One of these days I will post some pictures of my other addiction: The Sims.

did I mention I made a kick ass turkey pot pie?

I did.

I'd share, but you'll have to come over.

I think I've spazzed all over this place enough for one day.

come again.

Tell your friends.

I can't wait for today to be over...

I suppose I'm supposed to write something profound today.

It's some big hooplah "oh change is a-comin riding a big giant limo with giant doors" day.

But I shall abide, at least in this forum, by the rule that says "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all."

I will admit that I'm a giant hater and maybe I'm just a little put off by the mania that is surrounding everything. I mean, from the moment you could open you reyes until the second you want to sleep, it's full coverage. To the point that certain channels felt the need to broadcast the FIRST LUNCH.

It's like... seriously... it agitates me.

I just want the work to get done.
I want to see the progress. I want to see the changes. I want to see if they'll work or if they won't.

I really don't care what his wife is wearing or what their dog is gonna be named or where their kids will go to school.

HE'S NOT A CELEBRITY. He's just doing a job that I hope he does well.

I don't have a giant pocket of optomism right now.

I'm just waiting patiently to see what is gonna turn up.

I'm trying to be quiet, cuz making a fuss never does any good. It just muddies the water and makes it harder to see anything good that might happen.

so bring it.

I will say that I heard that his speech was realistic and tried to bring people's heads out of the clouds (or their own asses...)... so I will give him props for that. Keep it up, yo. Keep it up!

But please, I can't wait for today to be over.

Where my party people at?!!!

I really do enjoy my work schedule, for tomorrow is my regular Friday off! I get one every other week. it's lovely. I had to switch to a "normal" schedule for a few months and it damn near killed me! I need to have a day off every other week, ya feel me?!!

And coupled with Martin Luther King day... I get a 4 day weekend out of the deal.

So this is an interactive entry. Everytime that I say hell yeah! and you shall cheer!

It's easy and fun!

Are You Ready?

HELL YEAH!

*crickets*

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*twig snap*

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*baby cry*

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*zzZZzzzZZZ*

FINE!

Anyway...

So pray, what do I have planned for tomorrow?

Well after the 5:45 wake up, breakfast toss (kids love when you throw food at them), and ship kids to school routine I will blissfully fall back into my bed in my "presentably clean" room (not SUPER clean, but clean enough for people to come look at it and not make me feel total shame!) and go back to sleep.

I would like to hope I'd sleep until 10, but it'll probably be 8. Whatever.

Then I can watch strange random recorded shows from my DVR (mainly anime that I have to catch up from Adult Swim, like Bleach and Code Geass! Hell Yeah! ... ... ... *wolf howl*)... then I might get up and eat something random. Like left over cold pizza (I do plan on having pizza tonight! Hell Yeah! ... ... ... *tumbleweed rowls by*). Then my nerdy butt will sit at my computer and check email, blog, fart around until the urge to play some type of video game hits me (I'm wavering between Assassins Creed, The Sims 2, Guitar Hero, and Xenosaga... hows that for eclectic!).

Then I'll play it.

For at least two hours.

HEALL YEAH!

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*car crash*

Anyway, then I might go grocery shopping after lunch... or possibly just lay around until it's time to get my kids from school.

More laying around will ensue.

Don't tell meyou're not jealous

HELL YEAH!!!

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*alien invasion*

FINE!

I'm out yo.

OUT.

*Disclaimer* This entry is in no way me thinking that I'm actually cool. I know I'm a giant nerdly dorkopotomaus and I probably have a weird strange mental condition that hasn't been discovered yet. But  please don't tell the doctors cuz they just don't get it, and those coats they make me wear so I can hug myself are just not that comfy. Thanks!

What a day

Well, it's been a weird day.

I feel like my head may just be floating above my neck by a string but I'm far too afraid to check.

So... GUESS WHAT?!

My house hunt is over!

For fears of losing a steady reliable tenant with a job that isn't going to be lost anytime soon, my landlords have offered me a small cozy home to rent for the same price I'm renting now plus a couple hundred... and they will pay my utilities! So no more renting two rooms and a bath, i get those things plus a furnished livingroom and a kitchen!

Most excellent.

Of course the kitchen doesn't have a dishwasher. Whatever will my hands do? I HATE washing dishes! but I've done it for a year, so I guess I'm sorta used to it.

It does have half an acre of free open land to turn my kids free in. The bedrooms have built in cabinets and desky type things! I will be able to revel in my own space. I will be able to actually have my spices on a shelf rather than in a box that gets hidden underneath someone elses crap. I will have all MY OWN dishes that NOBODY CAN USE AND PUT THEIR STINKY MOUTHS ON!!!!

I WILL NOT HAVE BUGS!

My children will not be confined to quiet solitude in their rooms on Saturday and Sunday mornings (unless they get on my damn nerves and then I will shove them into a closet!). the school is less than 2 blocks away. Stores and evil fast food right up the street (my favorite place ever Carls Jr! oh i'm never gonna get skinny!)... I can jump around playing Dance Dance Revolution and run on the treadmill I hope my step mother will give me (it's fancy and does tricks! oh my)... i can decorate and buy area rugs (cuz it has HARD WOOD FLOORS. I'M HIGH FALOOTIN!) and put pictures up.

the bedrooms are across the house from each other (granted, it's still small, but cozy if you want to make it sound cute) so when I have somewhat loud debaucherous sex with my boyfriend, my children won't have to listen.

I TRY to be quiet ok!

HA HA. It's hard tho.

Anyway, this is not turning into a "how loud are you during sex" entry. That's just creepy.

Anyway, it's fenced and gated and parking is secured. There is a small guest house inthe back that has someone living in it who also owns a Pit Bull (eep!), but the dog is secured and he should leave me alone.

I am very excited.

I get to move in about a month, at the lasted March 1... I hope I move sooner.

I can't wait.

I will run around in my underwear the first night, just cuz I can (after my kids are asleep of course!) and revel in not having roommates EVER AGAIN!

I've learned my lesson.

anyway, this is rambly and quite possibly the most BORING thing you've ever read!

but I put colors in it. So at least it's pretty.

*flee*